Wednesday, April 15, 2009

And All Good Things Must Come To An End

Dear Diary:

Hello my friend. You and I both knew long ago that this day would come. We both knew that in order for me to begin a new chapter in my life, I must completely close this one. I do not know why it has taken me so long to come to this point. Maybe I felt if I ended this chapter prematurely, I would lose the opportunity to say the things that I needed to say. But truth be told, I have said all I can say and all I needed to say about my divorce, and my experience with it. And now I must move forward.

However, although this chapter will end, this does not mean that my story will end. I will move forward, my life will go on, and I will live a happy and fulfilled life. Whether that life is with someone or on my own, I can walk away from this experience holding my head up high, confident in who I am, and happy with the man that I am, and that is what is most important.

You know, looking back on my life at this point, something has occurred to me. Maybe I should have followed one of my dreams and became a writer. Since I was 16, it has been about the one thing that I have always gotten compliments on, whether it be at school, or at work. Now, I am not to say that I am any good, but some people thought I was decent, even though I have a tendency to get sidetracked (no shit right?).

Maybe I could even get you, Diary, published. Wouldn't that be something? I mean, besides probably being the world's most brazen attempt to tell off an ex-wife in the history of mankind and mass media, I could look back and say, "That's me, and that is my creation."

Or at least that was me for a time period. I wish no ill will towards X2B, or my ex-wife, however you wish to refer to her. I do not necessarily wish her to live a happy life, but I do not wish her a sad existence either. The only thing I do wish is that wherever she lands, she lands far, far away from me, both in mind, and in body. Maybe one day I will bump into her somewhere, maybe not. It really does not matter at this point. That chapter of my life is closed, and closed forever.

So now as I look to the future with open arms and an open mind, I am excited about what lies in store for me. I am looking forward to the challenges and obstacles that I will confront, and I am looking forward to the relationships I will cultivate, and maybe even one day, getting married again.

My life is not perfect and it never has been and it never will be. But Diary, as I have grown as an individual throughout this ordeal (and I still wouldn't wish it on the devil himself), I can look back and know that while I took my hits, I can, at the end of the day, walk away a survivor.

And that is quite alright with me.

So, I ask you, that should you see me walking down the street, say hello. Should you run into me, smile. Laugh when I do something stupid, or say something offbeat that gives you pause. Get to know me for who I am, as a man, and as a person. I could be your son. I could be your father. I could be your friend. I could be your brother. I could be your boss. I could be your colleague. I could be your confidant.

I could be you.


An Ex-Husband


Anonymous said...

We'll miss you. Be well.

Soon-To-Be Ex said...

Don't worry, I am just closing this chapter. I am going to be opening another one (aka blog) as soon as I get off my lazy ass and do it, or rather as soon as Comcast fixes my fucking Internet at home.

FoggyDew said...

As one of my favorite characters said:

"I'll escape now from the world
From the world of Jean Valjean
Jean Valjean is nothing now
Another story must begin!"

Obviously, this is meant along the lines of "Good luck as you start the next chapter."

Anonymous said...

dude, i'm also about to be you. i just stumbled upon this. i hope to fuck's sake you're ok, and you're doing better than me, i don't think i'm doing that well :/

Anyway, I'll have a read... I've thought about doing something like this myself... from what I've read so far it seems to have helped me just reading it... I imagine writing it would be quite good.

Take care

jolene1079 said...

I will miss your blog!! PLease let me know about your new blog, I'd love to keep in touch somehow. your blog has been amazing for me to read and I'd love to see it published!!